From: Brittany Yeager
“How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?” Psalm 13.1a
Have you ever found yourself in the midst of such agonizing pain that you’ve wondered if the days of joy will ever outnumber the days of sorrow? This is where we find David; asking the question, “Will it always be this way?”
What a tender place David invites us to in the thirteenth psalm. A place that feels forgotten and looked over. A place of darkness, doubt, and sorrow. A place where David has numbered the days, the moments since he felt remembered, seen by God.
May I do the same? This month marks two years of infertility for my husband and me. Two years of asking the same questions that David asks in this Psalm, “Will it always be this way? Will there always be deep sorrow in our hearts?”
And yet, David does not end his questioning in despair, and neither do we. We are held secure in our pain by the steadfast love of our Father, who invites us to believe that he truly has dealt bountifully with us. And so we wait in painful, yet joyful expectation this advent season—a hard and beautiful tension—for our coming King who has not forgotten us, and for the Day on which he will right every wrong and wipe away every tear and silence every doubt. Come, Lord Jesus!
I am CotC’s parish administrator, which means you’ve probably gotten an email (or several!) from me in the last few months. :) I live in Arlington with my husband Jon and our daughter Ellie. I love wreaths, candles, and all things Christmas!