From James Flaherty
Last of all, as to one born abnormally, he appeared to me. For I am the least of the apostles, not fit to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the church of God. But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me has not been ineffective. Indeed, I have toiled harder than all of them; not I, however, but the grace of God with me. Therefore, whether it be I or they, so we preach and so you believed. 1 Corinthians 15 8-11
I'm self-effacing. More than a tendency of mine, it's probably a bit of a crutch. Pride parading as humility.
What Paul is doing here strikes me as an incredible, tranquil humility.
For the sake of illustration, consider his letter an elementary school sketch of basic perspective. He places himself at the vanishing point so we might recognize, in the intervening space, Christ. Christ who is Paul's word. Christ who makes Paul's word. Christ who is Paul's cause, means, power of speaking.
Sobering questions for me: When my family is at stake, when my identity is at stake, do I speak in, with, by Christ? Or do I take care of things? Do I get the thing done? Do I own the problem?
I live in Jamaica Plain with my family.