From: Aanchal Narang
The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth. (Ps 145.18)
Truth is a hard word for me in this season. I’ve been trying to discern the truth, or God’s voice, from a number of battling voices in my head.
Lord, how do you want me to feel about this situation? How do I feel about this situation anyway? What should I do? Which voice do I listen to? How many truths are there?
All of this questioning is tiring and can sometimes feel very unhealthy. It erodes at the trust I feel in my intuition or my own self. And while I understand that the human heart is a complicated thing, how do I balance that with the fact that the Holy Spirit of truth resides in it as well?
What does the still silent voice remind me? When I let it, it reminds me that He loves me. He loves me. And in these moments my anxieties, my ruminations, my voices are subdued. What happens when I know that God loves me? It means I’m covered. I’m protected. I can trust.
So perhaps when I cannot fully trust myself, or the Spirit that works in my heart and mind, I can try to trust the God whose hand cannot be stayed and plans cannot be frustrated.
The Lord is trustworthy in all he promises and faithful in all he does.
The Lord upholds all who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down.
The eyes of all look to you, and you give them their food at the proper time.
You open your hand and satisfy the desires of every living thing.
The Lord is righteous in all his ways and faithful in all he does.
The lord is near to all who all on him, to all who call on him in truth.
(Psalm 145. 14-18)
If you were to trust God fully in the situation you are in now, what would that look like?
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